I dedicate no time to myself. I don’t know how to feel about that right now. But after a good 2-day weekend of not thinking about work, and just letting some perspective reach me, I realized that I am getting better and more efficient with what I do for a living but I need to pull back and balance taking care of me. I don’t sit and just reflect anymore. I work, come home and think about work, wake up and think about work. I think about work, projects, where I can take them, if I missed anything, planning what to do next, how I interacted with the people in the studio, how I can be a better designer, if I behaved, etc…
I’m a bit scatterbrained right now and I’m sure what I am talking about is an explosion of a million and one thoughts but somehow, I just had to sit in front of the glowing screen and not design and just type.
So… this 10-minute blog entry will, in some way or another, benefit me down the line. I just had to open up this self-discussion through my little blog thingy to get myself to acknowledge that I need to just spend some time with Jeff the person, not Jeff the designer (but I have to distinguish the difference between the two before I take on that task). I’ve been studying to play this role for 6 years and been playing the role of designer for a year. That’s damn near a decade. I think it’s about time to just sit back and do a little soul-searching. I feel like I dirty sponge that absorbed anything and everything from the past 7 years that I just want to start fresh with a new, clean, zesty lemon sponge so I don’t smell stale.