Archive for November, 2007

Stupid BART

Thursday, November 29th, 2007

Maybe it’s a sign. Yesterday, our morning BART had a power failure so it ended up turning from a 10-car train to a 5-car train with a 15 minute delay. Today, while I was more than half asleep, some 30-something, pair-shaped lady woke me up, asking for me to get up so she can sit. The last time I checked, 30-something isn’t anywhere near being a senior citizen and being pair-shaped is not a disability. I’ve happily up and left my seat for an elderly person and a person with a broken foot. On the way home, BART stalled twice, once in Oakland and the other in South Hayward.

It’s quite a coincidence that we are getting disgrunteld with our commute even more-so now that we’re moving. All my money went down on the deposit for the apartment but come Friday, I’m gettin’ me a MUNI pass. $45/month. Unlimited BART within SF, unlimited light rail and bus rides. Ugh.

Growing Up is Tough Stuff

Wednesday, November 28th, 2007

2006 was the shittiest year since 1996. Both years involved two deaths each. Both years involved a shit load of just living an unhappy ass life. But 2007. Ahh. 2007 is a great year. 2007 is a punch to the face of emotional overload. In just one year, I graduated, was awarded best portfolio, moved back home after three years, got engaged, witnessed my parents silver wedding, landed a full-time graphic design gig and now I am moving to San Francisco. That’s the equivlanet of sprouting your first pube, getting your first french kiss, losing your virginity, and being appointed captain of the 8th grade basketball team in one year. Well, maybe not. But still. This is like Ultimate Puberty.

All jokes aside, I saw this happening but all these changes feel like a vioelent whiplash, like being snapped back into reality, but a reality I’m not quite familiar with. It’s a reality I’m not familiar with but it seems like I’ve been trained all my life to handle the build-up to this moment. I am engaged, working, living off salary and I am moving out, again, perhaps for good. What if this is the last time I ever live at home. It sounds over-dramatic but I have a good feeling that it’s true. I don’t think I can ever call another place home.

After my dad heard the news today, he sent me an e-mail to congratulate me. It was also a tearjerker. It was a sentimental message and I instantly thought of the extra effort my parents have been pushing to make me as happy as possible with the shitty commute I faced everyday. My mom would still insist on giving me allowance and I would have to apologetically decline. My does my laundry, makes me breakfast everyday, warms up my car. There’s food on the table. I see my family everyday. Every morning and every night I give my parents a kiss and hug. I’m watching my brother complete his last year before college. I love home. As much as the commute distresses me, I love home. I have it made here. But I can’t milk it for too long. I wasn’t milking it to begin with. I’m extremely blessed.

Yet, I know it’s the right thing to move. I can’t pinpoint exactly why but it just feels right. I know. Just a month ago I was bitching about how much I hate my commute. But now that the days are closing in on living at home, after 4 months of what feels like a vacation, I am counting my blessings and acknowledging all the big and small things my family does for me. San Francisco isn’t far from Milpitas and Kate and I are more than down to come on random days for dinner but this is it. I’m a fully-fledged, fuckin’ adult. I can only reserve a portion of me to stay a child. There’s no room to be a full-time child forever. God, change is so depressing, yet exciting. Here comes the bad anxiety, part 2.

My parents are seriously the coolest.

Pentagram

Wednesday, November 28th, 2007

Still dreamin’.
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We’re Moving

Tuesday, November 27th, 2007

I was just kicked in the balls with a mixture of emotions. We’re moving to San Francisco. Saturday. Whoa.

Tore Up

Friday, November 23rd, 2007

I finally got to organizing some digital photos and came across these two. The picture on the left is from May 23, the day of the Department of Design Spring show. The picture on the right was taken after I had my hair chopped off a few Sundays ago.

Looking at this and comparing the “Then” with the “Now” has me thinking how much we put ourselves through. It’s insane. At the time the left photo was taken, it wasn’t that big of a deal to me.

I look like a corpse. Rob passed out during a major presentation. Kate zombified a few times. Vince had a few meltdowns. Design school was pretty crazy.

Thursday, November 22nd, 2007

“Wanna get shit-faced?”

This week was crazy. It was a three-day week at work that felt stretched to what’s equivalent of two weeks. Okay, almost. So after we called it quits for the day, Lee, my boss, asks “Do you guys want to get shit-faced.” Five of us were down. Kate and Paul joined after a couple of hours.

We went to Brick, in Nob Hill. 3 Fernets and 2 Chimays and a few sips of Vignette did the trick. We headed to some places in the Castro. Basically, we were all drunk but Lee and I were shit-faced. We took his question a little too literally.

Then the blurry span of events like me yakking nothing but alcohol, wheat thins and peanuts and. Then we were stranded in the Castro because Lee had to leave. We all parted ways, took the bus, BART, and got home at 1.

When I was yakking on some street in Castro, some guy was like, “Get it together, it’s only 11.” Ha. Eat it. I haven’t eaten lunch all week. That’s why Kate’s giving me a hard time for drinking a shitload and having nothing in my stomach. Like I said—hectic ass week.

Tuesday, November 20th, 2007

For the past two Thanksgivings, my family was in Sac so we had our own little Thanksgiving away from home. The rest of the family drove up to Sac to join me and my family while my friends stayed in Milpitas. I missed out on spending it with Kate and chillin’ with everybody. On Thanksgiving day, I’d eat and I’d set up workspace to chill and work on design homework for 14 hours at a time. It’s crazy and it’s only been a year but I miss that. This Thanksgiving, I will finally be in Milpitas. That’s the big change of scenery. I will also dedicate spare time getting my new site up. Nothing major. Just something, well, simple. Simple is timeless-er.

Sidenote. I hate using a mouse. I pretty much stopped using it in the past month and fully adopted the Intuos3 6×8″ tablet. I love it.

Tuesday, November 20th, 2007

Pardon the digital dust. I’m slowly re-designing my website. Something simple, something that families up with my portfolio site and something where I can posts a bunch of stuff if I ever feel like it. Plus, I’ve been tired of the look and feel of this site since, well, a week after I posted in 2004. Ha.

Sunday, November 18th, 2007

Yesterday was our second weekend looking for an apartment. The first week was a good start and we fell in love with a 2 bedroom apartment in The Richmond. The could-be roommate had to pull out so we continued our search yesterday.

After returning home at around 3 from Paul’s birthday, I get a call from Kate later that morning at 11. “Let’s go to SF and find an apartment.” The excitement in her voice alerted me to get up and I was in the shower five seconds later. While getting ready, Kate calls me again. “Dress professional.” I told her, “It’s Saturday! Who does that?!” I eventually gave in and half recycled an outfit from the day before. We had to look sharp.

The first place. I was impressed. It was probably one of the more beautiful in-laws you’d find (basically an empty space like a basement or garage converted into a living space, like Uncle Joey in Full House). I almost loved it. It’s in Upper Noe. It’s clean, quite spacious and beautiful. It had tons of natural lighting. The only problem is the ceiling is a whole foot shorter than your standard ceiling. I’m 5′10″. We applied and left them with a good impression.

The second place. The second place. The second place. We fucking love it. It’s right at Church and Liberty in Noe Valley. There are so many awesome boutique shops around and Chocolate Covered, a chocolate lover’s dream boutique shop (we spent over $20 each on 2.5 chocolate bars but they’re so good; they have this bacon chocolate bar I still need to try out). Anyhow, the studio apartment is beautiful, clean, new everything. The marble granite countertop in the kitchen, gas range, lots of built-in shelves and just about 575 sq. ft. which is a treat in San Francisco for our range. No lie.

The problem is. Well, the problem is there’s about a million other people going after the same shit as us. Kate and I are playing up our story of commuting from the Southbay and being the newly engaged couple. They require a hefty deposit to apply (which will be refunded or deducted from the rent if chosen) to filter in the serious prospects. We also wrote a friendly fax cover letter to send when we fax over our applications. It’s like we’re all aiming for the design internship position at Pentagram, yo.

The third one I loved. Kate didn’t. It was too old. It was right near Lower Haight and it was old, cozy and had wooden floor. It was an artists’ dwelling. But it freaked Kate out so we couldn’t agree to it. It looked like it came out of some Italian film noir joint. It was vintage yet beautiful. I would have lived there.

The fourth one. Fuck it.

The fifth one was cool. It’s basically taking over this lady’s lease who is moving to New York this Friday. We’d live i SF, paying a month-to-month lease and living until we find another place. We definitely would have accepted this on the spot if we didn’t see the second place at Noe Valley.

It’s much like going out for a job. The market is competitive. People can’t afford to buy houses so they’re renting places. Priced are jacked up. People are aggressive in their efforts; I mean look at me and Kate. She keeps shooting down my idea to give these people gift baskets and a well-designed and crafted self-promotional package with Jeff and Kate introductions. I hope the second place throws us a bone. We’re down to live at any of those three places, as they are all different living situations. The low ceiling place and the beautiful Noe Valley place are the same price. The month-to-month is drastically cheaper, but we’d be apartment nomads. The beautiful Noe Valley is a place we could live at for years and years.

You’ll see black and white pictures of me and Kate at Ikea with huge 575 sq ft. type next to us. That’s going to be us. Ha.

Thursday, November 15th, 2007

I love my family and I love home but I have to move. It has nothing to do with needing independence or anything like that. I love the fresh laundry. I love home-cooked food on the table. I love how I can rely on them to run my personal errands when I am too busy at work in SF . I love all the conveniences and my financial situation living at home. I love my parents. Still, I have to move.

My life is seriously at a halt right now. I don’t do much at all but work and meet up with the homies at the gym. I’ve described living at home like visiting a past life. It’s just weird. I really don’t want to say I need to move on with my life but that lazily sums it up. I really don’t mean to insult anyone and I’m very blessed to be content with life but I want to be able to stray off-path from work to watch a movie, go to a cafe, eat at a restaurant, explore the city, work long hours. Sure, I’ll have to cook or buy my own food, do my own laundry, and pay rent but I’d be living the life I busted my ass off for in school. I’m 24. I have the right to be selfish. More importantly, I’m a working adult with responsibilities and I deserve to indulge in life in huge or subtle ways to keep me sane.

I want to silkscreen. I want to letterpress. I want to photograph and develop prints. I want to hang out with co-workers. I want to chill in the city. I want to watch a shit load of live shows. I dedicate at least 15 hours a week commuting from door-to-door. Hell, I know, a bunch of people have more serious commuting issues. But I choose to want to live and work in SF. So I really don’t know why some people are sweatin’ me. Plus, the biggest difference I see in me and the people sweatin’ me is that I know what I want to do to keep myself sane, occupied, and content and they’re just kind of living day-to-day. It’s sad how robotic some people can be. Life is badass. Live a little.

I’m not going to lay my hours away from commuting to watch tv or sleep. I want to live a fulfilling life and I will strive to. But first things first, complete the other half of the dream and move to SF. I got the job. Now I got to move.

On another note, I chopped my hair. I receive a lot of compliments. But most of them start with “Did you do something different with your hair? I guess having long hair was pretty unnoticeable when you’re wearing a hat or a beanie everyday.