I haven’t felt inspired to photograph in over half a year. I know it’s just a phase. What really inspires me to photograph is just experiencing life openly—wandering around and just absorbing subtle surprises in life like unexpected moments from people doing funny things, to textures that strike me as interesting. I just haven’t felt that passion and inspiration to go out and photograph. Lately, it’s been more like a task.
There’s nothing wrong with it. When the time comes, I will be ready to take my cameras for a walk. It was never a skill I possessed, really. Many of the pictures I’ve taken were intuitively shot and just relying on sensibility to cool-looking things and experiences. Basically, I’m just not feeling fresh and inspired and I feel (keyword: feel) that I have covered a lot of ground. I know this is untrue and the ground is endless, but I just feel there is not much for me to explore right now. My focus is elsewhere.
But. With my disconnection to photography comes my re-connection to playing the guitar. It’s become a renewed connection and enjoyment. I just zone out, play sounds, create textures, adjust knobs, experiment with chord progressions, and vary light and heavy strumming. I really never played songs after my first two years out of college and I’ve been playing it since the end of my sophomore year.
But this reconnected enjoyment of mine is delightful and I would love to just sit around and experiment with tone, texture and sound for hours and fuck around with anybody willing to produce this shit with me. It’s meditation.
Everything in my life is very weaved into my design life and it’s more than important that I keep inspired whether through living precariously to let random “aha!” moments come to me, or grabbing those “aha!” moments myself.