The way I see it, I am working the hardest that I’ve ever worked in my life. Not just the hardest, but the longest, most consistent that I’ve ever worked in my life. I am juggling a great deal of projects. So I feel I owe it to myself to indulge a little. And it’s nothing extreme.
Kate and I are driving out to San Francisco and Berkeley three times this week to catch some awesome shows. If that means driving from Sac to San Francisco the 2nd time in a week, it’s all worth it. Why would I burden myself with driving if I didn’t find it worthwhile. Good live music is small, intimate venues help keep me sane. I admit, stadium shows and large shows are all too frantic for me and I just end up getting irritated.
Which brings me to my next topic. In our twenties, I think it is okay to be selfish. This is the point in our lives where we can dedicatedly focus on ourselves. It’s a crucial point in our development as adults who need to be aware of all the responsibilities, socially, culturally and personally. It’s the point in our lives where we can focus on school, our careers and our own spiritual growth.
The development that takes place in our twenties is what sets us up for how we respond and react to situations when shit gets tougher at an older age—when responsibilities start to globally affect those around you—like raising a family or something. We are also setting ourselves up of knowing how to keep sane.
I think there is a lot of shit out there which are hard to ignore. All the social and political issues that arise and how it affects whatever kinda of life we run. It affects us universally and we need to find some solace to all of this.
Being 23, I constantly seek a calm mental place in all of this craziness—school and surrounding issues. Plus, I’d be a fool to ignore all of this and though I don’t watch the news as often as I probably should (well, how many times can we count the word ‘TERROR’ flashing on our screens?). I sense how we are all affected. I’d be a fool to live in a vacuum and not know it. I’d be, well, most people.